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Been on twitter for just over a year now and apart from news updates have not really been using it.

Now thinking of updating with silly photos from my desk. Will see how I go with it.

I’m really enjoying this time, I like the feeling I have right now…

Flying and soaring…

Hmmm, hoping a pattern breaks here but even if not, remembering to enjoy the journey and stuff the destination

The passenger on this one rocks…

Well, that sucks…

I got slightly burnt there didn’t I…. Not helping with my damn trust issues.

But, I’ve learnt not to argue. Slowly, but I’ve learnt.

Had a fantastic time, but this is slightly painful

Quote from Jim Butcher is helping:

‘”We still hadn’t learned, though, that growing up is all about getting hurt. And then getting over it. You hurt. You recover. You move on. Odds are pretty good you’re just going to get hurt again. But each time, you learn something.

Each time, you come out of it a little stronger, and at some point you realize that there are more flavors of pain than coffee. There’s the little empty pain of leaving something behind – graduating, taking the next step forward, walking out of something familiar and safe into the unknown. There’s the big, whirling pain of life upending all of your plans and expecations. There’s the sharp little pains of failure, and the more obscure aches of successes that didn’t give you what you thought they would. There are the vicious, stabbing pains of hopes being torn up. The sweet little pains of finding others, giving them your love, and taking joy in their life they grow and learn. There’s the steady pain of empathy that you shrug off so you can stand beside a wounded friend and help them bear their burdens.

And if you’re very, very lucky, there are a very few blazing hot little pains you feel when you realized that you are standing in a moment of utter perfection, an instant of triumph, or happiness, or mirth which at the same time cannot possibly last – and yet will remain with you for life.

Everyone is down on pain, because they forget something important about it: Pain is for the living. Only the dead don’t feel it.

Pain is a part of life. Sometimes it’s a big part, and sometimes it isn’t, but either way, it’s a part of the big puzzle, the deep music, the great game. Pain does two things: It teaches you, tells you that you’re alive. Then it passes away and leaves you changed. It leaves you wiser, sometimes. Sometimes it leaves you stronger. Either way, pain leaves its mark, and everything important that will ever happen to you in life is going to involve it in one degree or another.” – Jim Butcher

Turning red

“I feel the laughter bubbling up within me,
Searching for a release,
My face starts to flush,
And soon, as the laughter bubbles out,
I turn into a strawberry Chupa-Chup”

Thank you for reminding me to laugh at myself, and turning me red

“Freedom is not needing to know what happens next”

Amazing how having a girl agree to have coffee with you will make you feel good I like this feeling…

We discovered each other just when we needed to. Thanks for becoming one of my best friends and helping me find my wings… This is not a goodbye but another holiday love you, you silly drummer..

A reminder to myself to be grateful for where I am, who I am and the path that led me here… And especially aware of those people who have brightened my life.

I miss you Susan and will be forever grateful for our friendship.

My friends are great… I love them all so much.

Let’s just be friends….

I hate those words, but I am a damn good friend and will continue to be.

But I hate those words…

I love my German family… I relax in this house like nowhere else. Friends that have become family…

Talking talking talking… We must never stop talking to each other. Feeling so much better, still things to clear but happier we can talk and relax with each other still…

So had the best 2 weeks so far, but changes are afoot.

I’m confused over the fact the connection we have seems to be being dismissed.
To me it’s not just something found in one crazy wonderful weekend. It’s something that needs to be nurtured and grown. Not dismissed…

Moving too quickly in some aspects of this for sure, but running away from it will not help either.

Not sure if I have strength to follow if that happens

Thank you for coming into my life. You make me so happy