I hate those words, but I am a damn good friend and will continue to be.

But I hate those words…

I’m confused over the fact the connection we have seems to be being dismissed.
To me it’s not just something found in one crazy wonderful weekend. It’s something that needs to be nurtured and grown. Not dismissed…

Moving too quickly in some aspects of this for sure, but running away from it will not help either.

Not sure if I have strength to follow if that happens

Settling into a good headspace but am missing old times…

It has been a crazy couple of weeks, I am glad of distractions from friends however, feeling grr lately

Wishing had more time to talk…

It was a pretty busy move but we got the work done. I was even luckier in that I was able to escape Frankfurt on the Saturday afternoon and go and see Ben and Dagmar. Caught the train up through the snow bound countryside to Bonn and had a brilliant time.

I had forgotten how relaxed I felt in their house. I was literally releasing muscles I hadn’t realised I was holding in.

My headspace since seeing them, plus having some extra time to myself has really helped me in processing. I’m god awful tired at the moment and I still feel a bit ‘waagh’ over certain situation but my headspace is much better.

I’ve remembered how far I’ve come in opening up and changing. 2010 looks to be another interesting year

Neil Gaimen says’s it the best…

http://journal.neilgaiman.com/2009/12/wishes.html

I know it’s bad form to repeat yourself, but I was about to list all the things I hope for the readers of this blog in 2005, and I realised I’d already written it back in 2001, when I said…

May your coming year be filled with magic and dreams and good madness. I hope you read some fine books and kiss someone who thinks you’re wonderful, and don’t forget to make some art — write or draw or build or sing or live as only you can. And I hope, somewhere in the next year, you surprise yourself.

And I sent them to http://journal.neilgaiman.com/2008/12/another-year.html which ended,

…I hope you will have a wonderful year, that you’ll dream dangerously and outrageously, that you’ll make something that didn’t exist before you made it, that you will be loved and that you will be liked, and that you will have people to love and to like in return. And, most importantly (because I think there should be more kindness and more wisdom in the world right now), that you will, when you need to be, be wise, and that you will always be kind.

And give to this world
All it’s
Beauty?

It felt the encouragement of light
Against it’s
Being

Otherwise,
We all remain

Too

Frightened

~~Hafiz

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I have just bought the new Powderfinger album ‘Golden Rule’. Love these guys, but one song is going on repeat at the moment.

Burn the Sky
“I want every single soul to know
That I love you for what you are
So I sound the bells that praise your precious heart

(Burn your name right across the sky
So I never forget what the feeling’s like) ”

Captures exactly what I want to say….